Flighty, Fickle and Fanciful ...

I want one of those and one of those oh and I think I'll have one of those ....

http://www.onehorseshy.com/holiday/funny_holiday/

Can I have em for my Christmas pressie perlease?

I really do not like Christmas, I find it tacky, salespeople are irritating and overly cheerful - I know they really don't want to serve me, they would rather be out with their mates or doing their own christmas shopping.

I've not liked Christmas for most of my life, so I know it's not just a recent thing, childhood christmasses at home were something to avoid if possible, My Dad drank ... a lot .. all of the time ... christmas was just yet another excuse for him to be away from home, then my Nan and Grandad would start one of their interminable rows - they'd end up not talking to each other for weeks at a time - when my Grandad died in 1990, my Nan hadn't spoken to him in 3 weeks!

They lived in the same house, they ate at the same table, yet they hadn't spoken in 3 weeks!! They did love each other and my Nan pined for my Grandad after he died and she followed him only 6 years later. I miss them both very much even if it is just their bickering!

I've also always felt really bad about celebrating Christmas, it all seems so wrong, especially as I know the effort my Mum put into Christmas, trying to give my brother and I a happier time than she had - her Mum died on Christmas eve when my Mum was only 14 and she had to take on the role of 'Mum' to her younger siblings.

We would normally try to go to visit the folks in Kent after Christmas, but this year it's all the wrong way round, we are doing the 'Kent' run on the 18th not because we are going to visit the folks and do Christmas but because we are going to attend the funeral of a family friend who died very suddenly last week.

So there's just some of the many reasons I really don't want to celebrate Christmas this year.

I will do what needs to be done for the sake of my daughter - but if I hear one more playing of Last fucking Christmas by Wham, I will do one of the following:

Throw up on your shoes
Stab you through the heart
Put a bag on my head and sing tra la la
and run away screaming ...............